Return to Work as an IT Security Consultant

Introduction

My return to professional work with the Metropolitan Police Service in London was an enormous event for me.  I had inevitable concern over whether I was still up to the job.  Nevertheless, I was delighted to be back doing something I had enjoyed being an expert at.  I kept a detailed diary for each day of my first week back.  I came to realise that it wasn't the work per se I enjoyed so much.  I now recognise it was the interaction with people and dealing with challenging situations which was stimulating.


The time period of the below diaries is Monday 24th July 2017 through Friday 28th July 2017, two years after my TBI on Friday 31st July 2015.


Return to Work Dialogue
Following are two snippets of emails which highlight my re-engagement with the Met Police.  Looking back on this period with several years of hindsight, I still find it impossible to explain how I felt.  I'm particularly baffled by how I flipped from feeling unable
to return to work (Email 1) to committing to do so (Email 2) in the space of just one month.

Email 1: 24th May 2017
Replying to an enquiry from the Met, where I was asked if I would consider returning
Hi Peter, It’s nice to hear from you.  I’m still on my slow road to recovery.  I’m still not fit enough of mind to be thinking of going back to work – which is so difficult – as work was a big part of my life which I now realise that I really enjoyed.  Anyways, I’m alive and slowly getting better, I need to concentrate on the positives.


Email 2: 26th June 2017
Engaging with the Met after having decided to return to work
Hi Peter, I do feel that I am at the right stage to get back on with my working life and appreciate you considering me.  As I said on the call, I feel that my usefulness at “doing PKI stuff” won’t have diminished, but there is the unavoidable fact that I need to ease myself back into work without me feeling that I have straight away taken on too much responsibility and potential for feeling under pressure / stress.  I am under no illusion that I can simply pick up where I left off, so I will need a bit of understanding around that.

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Monday

Day 1 (24th July 2017):  Travelling down from Stoke-on-Trent to London, and my first impressions of work again.  My thoughts on returning to work in the context of my overall recovery.


Tuesday and Wednesday

Day 2 & 3:  A day starting with dealing with an awkward person / situation, where I articulated the problems I had with him.  Regardless, the day ended positively.


Thursday

Day 4:  Witnessing problems develop during an important technical procedure, yet holding council until better entrenched.  I returned home absolutely delighted.


Friday

Day 5:  I was knackered, but immensely satisfied at how things had gone.  I felt born again - a positive feeling that I still have at age 51 in the year 2021.


Addendum

General thoughts about returning to work, and life in general!  I tried to articulate how impossibly fortunate I feel to make the kind of recovery that I have.